Hi!

First of all, I apologize if I do anything wrong trying to make a post. I only know like 30 words of german. Not very sufficient at all, haha.

Anyway, I am 24, female and from Estonia (so english isn't my first language either). And the reason I registered is because I hope to find people with similar feelings to talk to. By feelings I mean constant anxiousness, like I am supposed to be doing something, and the feelings of urgency. I realize of course that the world does not revolve around me, but yet I feel quite often like it pushes me towards something. It honestly drives me crazy a little bit. Luckily I have a very strong sence of self and I am a realist, so I have always been able to know for certain when something is part of my imagination and calmly analize everything I know for certain that has happened. Though I still feel trapped for some reason.

I really don't want to be arrogant and say that I am special, with a greater purpose etc. But everything around me really does seem so mundane most of the time, and inside I just cannot settle down. I honestly have no idea what it is that I am supposed to be doing.

I don't really even know how to clearly convey the things I've been wanting to say, but I guess people here get those things without telling. I do hope this site picks up. I would love to talk about everyone's experiences and maybe learn something through them.

Also, if anyone is interested, I have had a couple of paranormal encounters (one with a ghost, I suppose, and one I don't know how to explain), so if someone is intetested I would love to share stories.