My name is Alexander. I´m 36 and from germany.

I don´t actually have too much time to write right now, but I will start this thread already, because I just want to greet everyone here and say that I am happy to be here. :) I will tell you more about myself and my journey later on the weekend, but I will start now with why I am here right now.

I have been led to this little forum by a series of "coincidences". Yesterday I had a visit from a friend. He is only 21 and reminds me in many aspects of how I was at that age. He is a little bit into conspiracy theories, but also rather driven by anger, fear and sadness most of the time, which is why we seldomly talk about things on a "deeper" level. We mostly stay in the superficial realms of talking to each other. So we sat on the couch yesterday and all of a sudden he asks me if I believe in fate. Such a question in itself was absolutely unusual for him. I explained to him my view that I do not believe in a fixed order of things we can not change, but do very much believe in the existence of a certain kind of fate you are meant to fulfill, while it is your choice at any point to actually do that.

I asked him how he came up with the question and he said that although it might sound weird to me...he has the feeling that he is meant to do something very important, that he thinks about it a lot, but he has no idea what it could be. I could not stop smiling during that because, as I told him than, I have had this feeling throughout my whole life. My wife told him that it was true and how often I told her exactly that during the 15 years we are together now. I told him that I think that it is some kind of instict that he should trust and take care not to lose it, because I myself stopped trusting in it at some point during my life. I had gone through some very dark times in my life and viewed myself as a failure...kept thinking that it could not have been true, otherwise I wouldn´t have fucked up stuff through most of my life. At some point only a few years ago I was able to leave all darkness in me behind and had kind of an awakening. I will tell you more about that later, if anyone care to hear it, but a lot of things happened for me and it led me back to a point of total trust and faith in this feeling. I have learned so many things in my life and have beclome a completely renewed person. I now have the feeling of there beeing an important thing to do for me more intensive than ever before...only now it is not so vague anymore, but has now a sense of urgency. Not something that might or might not occur at some distant point in time, but rather something that will come and quicker than I might expect and that I need to be prepared for.

We left the topic, both with astonishment that we shared that feeling. During a minute of silence my wife said something totally unrelated about how much a certain sportsman still earns through endorsements although he isn´t even active no more. That led us to wondering which kind of sportsman does actually earn most in the world. I googles it and the top results was a list by "forbes". When it loaded it took me to a different page first. It was a welcome page ( http://www.forbes.com/forbes/welcome/ ) that seems to always come when you first go there and displays nothing but one, changing, quote by some kind of "famous" people. Both us us were kinda stunned when the quote we got related directly to the topic we just talked about. It was: "I don´t believe in fate. It is the refuge of self-confessed failure." We both saw what weird kind of coincidence that must have been, when it is basically what I said to him about fate in the first place.

We talked a little more and when he left later, my wife and just chilled and went on to watch some "community". I like the series....we have been watching it for a while and just went to watch the next one in the given order. It seemed kinda ridicoulus that it was an episode that was completely build about the topic of fate. It was the episode 12 of season 4 called "heroic origins", just in case anyone would like to watch.

I know that all this might seem like nothing to some people. Others will have eyes to see. I saw signs in it. First thing I did this morning was to start writing on a text about the topic, because I wanted to write something down for my friend that could maybe help him on his way. During that I also googled "I have the feeling of being destined for something". That led me to this page: http://www.experienceproject.com/stories...-Things/1453125 . I read a little and stumbled over the link to this forum. I was quite surrised that it´s a very young forum. Just as if there has been the urge to do something at a certain point of time in someone else too.

I am not saying I KNOW anything, and I do not judge anyone who might say that I just went through an unimportant series of stupid coincidences, but I see great value in at least talking about it and maybe this place actually leads to something that is meant to hapen ? I guess we will see. :)

I am looking forward to talking about this stuff and wish you a good weekend.